We are not supposed to look around, compare ourselves to others. After all “comparison is the thief of joy”, but we do it, right? We get caught up in “I’m not good enough” and then we find evidence of our insecurities because we’re looking for it.
No one is immune, no one is above the “gremlins” as Brene Brown terms them. The gremlins are those whispers that you hear telling you you’re not good enough, smart enough, attractive enough… Sometimes they scream so loudly in your ear, you can’t hear anything else.
This week those gremlins were loud and clear in my head. I just cried and screamed and heard them all so very clearly with all the awfulness that they were yelling at me. They got the best of me. They took me out for a couple of hours. (Seriously, I was crying at the gym). Kept it together as best I could, and then come home and fell into a puddle.
I am sharing because I know I am not the only one this has happened to when everything hurts and you can’t get off the ground with the weight of what you have in your heart and in your head. I tried to talk myself out of it with all the scripture, all the affirmations, all the gratitude in the world and then I just gave up and cried about all the shit! I leaned into the pain.
Yes, my life is pretty great but those gremlins yell at me and sometimes get the better of me and I just had to say ‘ok, this freaking sucks and I have no idea where to go from here, so I’m going to have myself a pity party and just let it all go……………….’ All the “supposed to’s and should be’s and what-have-you-done” Just let go, just cry and feel all the pain.
That’s not the end of the story though. Not the end of this story or your “puddle on the floor” story. The end of the story is that I got up, pulled myself together, washed off. I was emotionally spent. I got on with my day and did what was next on the agenda, and listened for and expected encouragement and literally the rest of the week everything I saw and heard was an encouragement!
The reason I share this story is that I know I am not the only one who struggles with the gremlins getting the best of them sometimes. There is no shame in it, we have to go through it to come out the other side. It’s nice to know we’re not alone with our gremlins and to know that it’s ok.
I want you to face your gremlins head on. Let your friends know you’re struggling. Cry, lean in and let the struggle be a part of your success story and then get back in the game, and expect encouragement because it will come!
These “gremlins”/struggles are part of this life, and sometimes they just won’t be ignored. Be encouraged that you are not alone in your battles and that you always have a friend at CoWork Landing when you need one!
We are seriously all in this together.